Sometimes when I look back at things I write down in all of these web 2.0 tools (Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, Blogger), I feel pretty shallow. After all, this is where I don't really share what is going on in my life. Just those mini thoughts I have along the path of REAL LIFE.
Today I'm not having mini thoughts. I'm having REAL LIFE thoughts. You know, how things are really going behind the scenes.
My past posts (this week) are a bunch of happy photos with family, random posts about how people don't like Peanut Butter Oreo cookies and how I want to be just like the lady who blogged about Julie Childs.
Really - not very deep stuff.
What is really going on in my mind and at my house?
- I am trying to eat right and am still gaining weight.
- I exercise and I still gain weight.
- I don't always get my monthly reports in on time for our primary attendance records.
- I am dealing with a lot of people that are not only non-proactive, but can't even do the basics of their jobs. And, even if they are proactive, they aren't experienced enough to see the big picture or know how much effort it really takes to do a job.
- I lead meetings every day where 80% of the people think they know more than me about our development process. Most have never been involved in a development project. I've managed over 100 development efforts in this environment. I can tell you the successes, issues, failures, risks, etc. within the first 10-15 minutes of interacting with the team on any given project. That, my friends, comes with experience (experience = failures + lessons learned + time + success).
- I fight work battles that those in higher pay grades should be fighting. Most of the time I don't get acknowledgement for fighting those battles. Sometimes it hurts me professionally.
- I'm helping people secretly in ways that have impact on my own health, wealth and mental attitude.
- I am emotionally, physically, and mentally dealing with pains in my own life as well as the lives of many friends.
- I get bugged when I don't have enough ME time.
- I didn't clean the dishes for three days this week because I ran out of dishwasher detergent, even though I had at least 10 little bottles of regular dish washing detergent and could have easily transferred the dishes to the sink and washed them.
- I de-junked each room halfway last weekend leaving all kinds of things half done in every room of the house...further driving my mind crazy.
- I have dreamed up rude things to say to people that bug me, but being a little verbally challenged - these eloquent quips come out about four hours after the fact.
- I sometimes dislike Sundays because it means another day of meetings, which means it is not a day of rest.
- I hate when I don't get to go on a walk on any given day.
- Sometimes I really don't have time for you, but it is me, not you, that has the problem.
Ok, each sentence starts with an "I," but "I" am not the only one that tries to stay positive, but has to deal with REAL LIFE. You do too.
Maybe I'm just cranky today. I threw up all night, had a horrible migraine type headache, laid in bed participating in a two hour conference call that involved a lot of unnecessary wordsmithing of a document. That was followed by different groups of people yelling at me through email because they want to start projects right now because they have to use their money by the end of September. Um, I'm not perfect, but planning does help a bit...especially if done 10-11 months in the past.
So, perhaps I'm just tired. I can't even take a real sick day without working seven hours with my computer, blackberry, iPhone and notebook in bed with me.
I warned you. This post is about REAL LIFE.
Now, since I'm being real, and I'm hungry - I'm going to grab me something to eat that I probably shouldn't eat and go back to bed since I can't take a walk.
It might be best if I go into my cave for a few days before writing another post. Perhaps by then I will be back to my shallow insights which may be more appealing than these REAL LIFE rants.
6 comments:
Oh Rebecca. . .If I still lived close I'd want to bring you dinner. Can you settle for some cyber cookies? I keep waiting to hear that work is getting better, but it doesn't sound like it is. Here's hoping that something (anything?) changes for the better!
Ok, that one above is me. I'm using my Father-in-Law's computer :).
I am so sorry to hear about your cr-iz-appy day. We love you and are rooting for you. If you need anything, we would love to help.
Actually, I want to thank you for sharing your crappy, real life experiences because it helps me to realize that I'm not alone. And, it's sort of refreshing believe it or not. I'm sorry you're having a terrible day, however, and hope that you feel better soon.
Haaa. Cyber cookies are good! And, good for the waistline. Elise/Wayne (by the way, i was wondering who that was), work isn't getting better, but I'm still trying to make sure I do all of it. We'll see what the future holds.
Luckily, today I feel a bit better...though my iPhone fell out of my hands, hit my laptop and now refuses to work. Serenity now!
I think this particular blog could be the test episode for your new tv sit-com. It has all the right elements and I think it would be even better than THE OFFICE.
What is happening to the American workplace? Why does it have to be so hostile? Can anyone make just a little effort to show just a smidge of appreciation and give credit where it is due? This is a recurring theme...I would love to make it into a mini-series or something. Might as well make money out of our misfortunes, right? I think our own situation could be called "Grapes of Wrath 2009". Okay, it isn't quite that bad...but some days I wonder how far it will go.
Sorry for the huge comment...We are thinking about you and hope things perk up!
Lorena
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