So much to write, but so little to say

Ok, this entire week I wrote down blog topics that needed exiting from my mind. Since I can't access the blogosphere at work, and because I was in a fairly intense training, I figured I would be able to write about everything on my mind this weekend.

So far so bad.

I have so much to write, but yet my mind and heart aren't in it right now. It's one of those days where some stressful stuff came up at the end of the day and it really just threw me off course mentally. It's amazing to me how fast that can happen! One minute you can be revealing in the "I had a good day" feeling and then something happens - a phone call, a note, a piece of mail, a comment - and suddenly the heart and mind change. With good news an amazing feeling comes over you. But, like today, sometimes your heart turns to lead (heavy) and your mind asks - Why? Why me? Why us?

This is when I cry, ask why, eat a few things I shouldn't eat and then say those prayers that should be said everyday, but are often lost in the bustle of life.

After a while (minutes/hours), the reality of "life isn't fair" comes back and somehow the mind finds a way to justify that things will be OK and the heart finds a way to move forward despite the challenges that arise.

I'm feeling a little better right now, but ...I still think I'll save those other blog entries for another day.